Sleep must really hate me

Because I haven't seen any decent side of her in about a week now. I'm not sure why I'm not sleeping well, but instead of going to sleep within minutes and staying that way (or possibly waking up briefly), I just fidget and twitch and think and sigh and think about sleep and wish for sleep and roll around.

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Maybe it's the season. It's been hotter lately (close to 90 today, ugh!), so perhaps my body is not adjusting to the temperature change. I've been thinking quite a bit (planning, I suppose) about what I want in life (ie...career wise), and how I'm going to keep going after it (or take more drastic steps). Honestly though, I'm always thinking like that, so I don't know why this past week would keep me up like this.

When I do get to sleep, it's fitful and uncomfortable and not at all satisfying. I wake up in jolts and my heart is racing. Maybe I should cut back the caffeine, but I only drink a cup (or less) per day in the morning, so again, I don't think this is the issue.

I've never been an easy sleeper. I wake up frequently, but I don't tend to move when I sleep well, which means I wake up rather stiff and feeling like a frozen Gumby. I wake up if I'm thirsty, hungry, hot, cold, or dreaming (so it seems). I wake up when lights are turned on or off and when constant noises stop or start.

Even worse is that I generally need to be exhausted by the time I go to sleep (especially if I want to go to bed early) in order to fall asleep. It's very difficult to exhaust myself daily in order to get good sleep. I don't particularly enjoy being exhausted. My increased running mileage over the past few weeks has helped me sleep a better, more solid eight hours each night...until now.

Maybe I'm too tired. Is that possible? I don't feel like I should be too tired. I'm not doing that much. Regardless, sleep is now this fanciful thing that I chase and can't quite catch and hold. I still have other thoughts, but they all revolve back around to sleep. I think I'll make a nest on the floor tonight and see if a change in environment helps. Wish me luck!